They'll Never Hurt You Like I Do
Example #317b of our messed-up relationship:
He refused to eat until I told him what was wrong. As in, what was deeply, darkly, hiddenly, psychiatrically wrong. And he refused to eat any food, until I bore that part of my soul.
And now every time he looks at me, I know that he knows; that he forced a confession from me, and he left me alone with it - because we certainly have no future. He pries intimacies from me and collects them like pearls to string about his neck; maybe; but I don't know what else he'd be doing with them.
A normal person would offer stability and hope and - plans. But I don't think a normal person would refuse to eat for a secret, either.
He refused to eat until I told him what was wrong. As in, what was deeply, darkly, hiddenly, psychiatrically wrong. And he refused to eat any food, until I bore that part of my soul.
And now every time he looks at me, I know that he knows; that he forced a confession from me, and he left me alone with it - because we certainly have no future. He pries intimacies from me and collects them like pearls to string about his neck; maybe; but I don't know what else he'd be doing with them.
A normal person would offer stability and hope and - plans. But I don't think a normal person would refuse to eat for a secret, either.
Sigh. Too bad I go for crazy.
posted by juxtaposer at 5:10 AM
9 Comments:
What was the secret (slobber-gurgle)
I'm pulling my hair out right now. Metaphorically.
"He pries intimacies from me and collects them like pearls to string about his neck"
Lovely. This post is beautifully tragic. I just found your blog, but I'm excited to keep reading. I am sorry to hear about your troubled relationship. But great work on your blog.
By the way, did you steal your title from Something Corporate? If so you've hit my favorite song.
I did steal the line from Something Corporate, battlerocker. Good call, spotting that one. Welcome to the blog.
Also: it's amazing what can change in a day's time. I'm keeping this post up because it was honest and raw at the time...but as is the case with these things, that all can change.
Sounds like a title from someone who's stuck on themself. And that can never change in a days time... :)
I'm guessing Anonymous has never heard the song.
Battlerocker: "There is nothing interesting about my life except perhaps my total lack of authority to speak meaningfully on any subject whatsoever." -Yup.
Post a Comment
<< Home